A Wannabe.

Sophomore. Pianist wannabe. Positive pessimist with hopes. Currently struggling with Math problems and Programming assignments in university.

That's my updated Twitter Bio. Been longing to update to something more current. This time I added "Pianist wannabe." In my opinion, although I can play the piano, it's still early to call myself a pianist. There are so many things that a pianist usually do that I can't do yet. I don't have their kind of confidence. 

It's a blessing to be able to pursue my study in music now even though I'm a full-time university student. I've been selfish and demanding (living off-campus since the 1st semester) to make this arrangement work. So that I'll have access to the upright piano at home 24-7. I study Maths during Weekdays and then Music during weekends. 

It's a life-long journey.

If...

Back to campus - Semester 3!

Nothing much happened lately... though... 

I find myself struggling to play with more speed... It's making me crazy & I keep asking myself "Why can't I do that????"  *sigh* 

And then... there's another thing that suddenly appeared.. Improvement or just an odd thing? I don't know yet. It's like this. When I play a piece, I realise that I'm trying to match the sound with the sound in my head. Sometimes I ended up just pressing whichever key I thought sounds like it... Sure, I make many mistakes, but I think it's good for me to develop a confidence during playing.

Oh, yeah.. A week before Semester 3 started, I read a post by a newly enrolled university-mate. She's majoring in music (piano). It made me thought of my own future. What if I didn't stop learning to play the piano 12 years ago? Will I be heading to the music field too? Will I aim to become a professional pianist? Though... there's many factors to be taken in account too actually... 12 years ago, my family wouldn't afford buying an upright piano... To be frank, I was afraid of my piano teacher at that time. BUT. Even with all those factors... if I made it through... I wonder...

How would that musical future look like?

Songs I Never Knew

These past few days, I had discovered many new (for me) inspiring songs. Mostly instrumental. Okay. All instrumental. Haha. I believe I would discover more in the future... this inspired-like feeling seems so new to me that I can't wait to see to which direction it will bring me to musically.

Oh, yeah. I also finally found two answers to some of my "Whose song was that?" questions. There's so many popular piano instrumental songs out there (hard to search a song online if you only know the melody and not the name of the song and the artist who played it), I thought it was amazing that the answers came to me when I wasn't seeking them.  ^_^

Anyway. The songs are : Richard Clayderman's "Ballade Pour Adeline" (which I found out later was originally composed by Paul de Senneville) & Frank Mill's "Music Box Dancer". I've always heard the former song since I was little. But last year, something brought it back to mind (with bits of my childhood memories). I heard of it played by my music school's principal when she was demonstrating to a customer. It was night. I was so surprised when she started playing with a fortissimo, but that might be because of the acoustic of the show room. 

Richard Clayderman - Ballade pour Adeline

Music Box Dancer - Frank Mills

  

I will learn to play those songs on the piano. I WILL. 

(I found the piano scores for "Ballade pour Adeline" here & "Music Box Dancer" here. Big thanks to these piano sheets that are available online.... =P)

Dispirited.

I tried on a very difficult piece (I think it's a greek song) yesterday. Chords-like, 3-in-1-press notes... My head spun like crazy. How could someone play this so expertly? How could I tackle this? It's the first time I heard of that song, so the melody was still unfamiliar to me thus making it harder to play. 

To be honest, I was a bit afraid that this is one of "those" pieces. You know, the pieces piano teachers ask you to play to see if you have improved or not. I think I had several of those pieces before, & unfortunately I didn't pass all of them. 

Haven't practice much since yesterday... I feel lost.

Gosh. Distracted.

My other problem with doing constant practice is "new songs". I'm so easy at being attracted to some songs I just listened to & desperately wants to play them on the piano. I would google for the piano sheets. Most of the time I will find it. I would then concentrate on the song - only happens when the piano score I found for it isn't too hard for me. Few days later, I may or may not lose interest & abandon the song entirely. Haha. I don't even bother perfecting after I could play it. 

Sigh.

Jumping from songs to songs isn't really "healthy", right? One should finish what one has started.... 

BIG SIGH.